I'm going to start a new blog soon, I think

This one has run its course. I don't feel like "craptasticqueer" anymore. I don't know, maybe its mellowing with, my god, age. Or even worse, the fear that the relative openness I've maintained here - and if you look back to previous posts, my god i was really open - is no longer sustainable as I prepare to graduate and enter the workforce. Yeah its still a year away but bottom line, I think this place was great, and its such an amazing record of the last 5 years of my life (well, make that 3 ish because to be honest, my updates for the past one and a half years have been sporadic at best), and I will leave it here for posterity, but... the time has come for something new.

Will get down to it when I get back to SG. Ah, getting back to SG. It's funny that I really do look forward to that so very much. Because I'm never satisfied with the present and am always looking into the future. Will let the people who need to know know when I have found a new place for writing.

Anyway, I'm going to end with the most random parting comment ever. I was looking through pictures of the two of you on FB, because, well, that's what I do when I have a barely written essay due in 3 days time and another 5 days after that. No, not you and you, but you and you.

And you don't read blogs so you're never going to read this, but I thought to myself, wow he was REALLY stupid to have let you go, especially for that. But love is blind I suppose?

As for you, I still love you very much. And I don't really know what to do at this point. I suppose we'll find out eventually won't we?

Just Up

Caught the NUS team's final preliminary round here in DC, with Nich (is that how you spell the shortened version of his name) and Sarah speaking. They got very positive feedback from the judges, and I thought that these were largely well-deserved, although their overuse of "your excellency" did not escape the notice of one of the excellencies, and I did think it too 'Asian supplicant', if you know what I mean.

Keith and I had a fascinating discussion on the way from the Capital Hilton (where the moots are being held) to school, regarding intelligence and what it means. Its substantive content, if you will. Its so much easier to dismiss a person as being unintelligent, stupid, than actually finding an example of someone who is truly intelligent. I can think of a few names, but I'll keep them to myself ;)

Job hunt still proving elusive, I wonder if I have been screwing up my telephone interviews by being too candid, or worse, boring. Time will tell.

And to any of you out there right now who may be finding the waves of life lapping upon your shore a little too keenly (wow what a well-conceived but terribly expressed metaphor), know that you are not alone, and your friends are here for you. They admire you, respect you, and care for you. They think the world of you, and hope that you can see in yourself that strength and loyalty that is emanates so brightly from you.

paris is beautiful

come what may, come what may, I will love you, until my dying days

Out of Words

Could it be that I have nothing left to say? Its the only explanation I can muster to defend my long absence from this blog. I used to pour my heart and soul onto this - just look back a few years - but lately, well, the emotions and feelings are there but I can't be bothered to write them all down. Maybe I'm just lazy, I dunno.

Traveling has been amazing, but other than that exchange has been blah. WISH I HAD GONE TO EUROPE URGH. But anyway, I was just thinking about how I'd love to work for a law firm in London/New York, where the clients are huge and the work is exciting and cutting edge, but that means taking myself away from Singapore and away from you, and I don't want to do that any more than I already have. I mean, I can survive without you but I just don't want to. It makes me sad to think we'll grow distant, yet I can't promise that we won't. Especially if I'm living overseas in the future. So I guess the solution to that is to stay in Singapore, and hopefully you'll be there too.

I have so little fight left in me

Maybe I'll just remain single for life.

Grr

Already in an irritable state, I get more annoyed when one Brandon Tan says "Hello" and :) to me on fb. Like... OMG GO AWAY

travel plans for winter

24 - 31 Dec Japan
1 Jan - 9 Jan Singapore
10 Jan - 13 Jan Seattle
14 Jan - 18 Jan Cancun

Wah all this in less than a month. IF ONLY I could do this for work :(