Defrost

I've never been one to praise JIVE records, but credit must be given where its due - they've been pushing Blackout even though the person who should be doing the promotion has not been doing her job. Hence this official remix of third single Break The Ice with Fabolous, who in my eyes will always be remembered for his contribution to the Get Right remix. This week, Break The Ice entered the top 40 on pop radio, following in the footsteps of its predecessors. While they haven't exactly been radio smashes, Gimme More and Piece of Me have - will, in the case of the latter - sold more than a million digital downloads each in the US. No small feat indeed. Both peaked in the top 20 on the Hot 100, (#3 and #18 respectively) and in the top 3 in the UK (#3 and #2). When you consider the promotion that's actually been done (the horrible VMA performance, the boring GM video, and little else bar the PoM video which was barely good), this is actually pretty good. Now if only more people will pick up the parent album.

Break The Ice started off slowly, taking over a month from the time it picked up airplay to enter the top 40 on CHR Pop, but over the past week (ironically, following the release of the OFFICIAL ANIME VIDEO, which I'm sure most of you have seen), its been picking up steam on airplay and sales and this remix may just be what is needed to push the song further up the charts. And of course, Britney's guest-starring on 'How I Met Your Mother' next Monday, which isn't exactly promotion for the song but is certain to get attention and is a step in the right direction. I don't want to jinx anything at this point...but maybe rock bottom's finally been hit.

Things have been quiet on the Britney front recently. Relatively speaking. Which is actually great.

Things have been quiet on my front too no?

Another aborted attempt to hit the gym tonight. I had a mild headache and decided, sometime between school and Bugis, that I wanted desert instead. So Jin took me to Menotti's and we had the most delectable desert ever. Ice cream and warm chocolate cake. Can die.

Sitting outside in the cool air, in a place so familiar yet alien (at that time of night), I almost felt...content. For that fleeting moment. Good food, good company, good conversation...

We talked. Or rather I talked. Tried to verbalize what I've been feeling the past few weeks and it finally crystalized today. And it felt so much better when I finally did hear myself saying it. It went something along the lines of, 'I don't want to become a gap-filler'. Yeah. That's rich isn't it? You'd think I'd have gotten used to being single by now... it's more or less the only status I've known all my life... but even after the bad experiences, even after 6 seasons of SATC (CANNOT WAIT FOR MAY BTW), it still stings, especially when people around you move on.

Earlier today in school, I was prodding Jin to tell me why a lot of people initially react differently to me than they do to him. I have a number of theories spinning in my head but listing them out here is just going to, well, make people even less keen on getting to know me. But let's do it for kicks (and to give you guys an idea of how much Jin suffers).

1) I am ugly. People don't want to get to know ugly people. I sure as hell wouldn't want to.
2) People find me mind-numbingly boring. A personality vacuum is never an appliance the reasonable person wants to own.
3) I am socially retarded (ooh I am in esteemed company here) and am unable to connect and click with most people.

Points to ponder no? Anyway, CONtract is calling. Emphasis is intended.