I Want A Life That Is Mine

And not dependent on the schedules of others.

I do envy people who have hectic schedules and actually need organisers.

Not my 'let's-have-an-organiser-so-I-can-convince-myself-that-I-lead-a-fulfilling-life' one.

This is the umpteenth weekend I find myself at home with nothing to do.

Is it sad that my weekdays are more enjoyable/memorable than my weekends are nowadays?

And when more than half the people I know do go overseas for their studies later this year, are even my weekdays to be so unbearable?

I want a life that is mine.

A fulfilling, rewarding life, without the bitterness I've been feeling the past few days.